Maybe it’s found the moment you decide to take a risk, departing from your usual, daily routine…
Deciding not to go to the bar with your friends that evening, but choosing to stay at home instead to reopen the novel you had started a couple months ago.
Deciding to call in sick that day at work, convincing your spouse to do the same, so that the two of you can take a day-trip to the beach.
Deciding to sign up for the soccer team and go to their first practice after school, even though you had never played before and it meant you couldn’t go home to your favorite video game.
Or maybe the moment you connect with someone…
When a stranger on the bus reaches out to you to tell you that the two of you are wearing the same shoes, which leads into a conversation unraveling further surprising similarities between the two of you.
When you get an unsuspected call from a music publishing agent who tells you she attended your singing performance at the coffee shop down the street last week, and that her agency wants to sign you for a record deal.
When your boyfriend of 4 years tells you that he’s still just as madly in love with you as he was on the day he first met you. Then, while kneeling down and pulling out a small box from inside his pocket, he asks you to spend the rest of your life with him.
It is in these sometimes simple, sometimes spectacular experiences, when it feels you’ve got a hold on your true self.
When you seize an opportunity to step out of your comfort-zone, into the pursuit of something else that, not knowing why or how, you mysteriously understand will provide you with a better life.
Or when you’ve acknowledged that a gift, or experience, has been so specifically given to you, it is too purposefully planned to be downplayed as luck or coincidence…
This is what I’m meant for.
The world freezes as you reflect on your special moment and the strangest mixture self-celebration and humility fill your being. A joy is settled in you, so full, you don’t feel like you deserve it.
The great problem, however, interfering with our treasured self-discovery is how quickly we lose it the moment we stop believing in its value and truth.
We can only keep it by continuously harvesting self-belief, acknowledging over and over that, with the humblest acceptance and thanks:
I am worthy
I am able
I am loved
And living as if you believe in this truth to be more important than anything else.